[dammit... Osomatsu's grip tightens, and he tries to get Karamatsu to look at him. when it doesn't work, he drops his head and his arm.
Karamatsu couldn't forgive Ichimatsu for what happened. why should he forgive Osomatsu, who'd done something much crueler?]
I really am... a shitty older brother... aren't I?
[if Karamatsu's not going to cry, then Osomatsu will do it for him. honestly, he's sort of been needing to cry. ever since he died, Osomatsu has been keeping his feelings bottled up inside. he's lost his family, lost his home. who knows if he'd get to see his mother and father again, or Totoko-chan? what about the brothers who didn't come to hell?
and when he thought Karamatsu was going to leave him... he couldn't take it. he'd been so upset that he went as far to push him away. why had he done something so stupid? what kind of brother was he? he was the absolute worst. it was no wonder Karamatsu killed himself.
and so, he cries. it's not his usual crocodile tears. those tears usually come with whining. but now, Osomatsu is not whining. he's crying silently, letting his tears fall from his eyes onto his pants]
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[dammit... Osomatsu's grip tightens, and he tries to get Karamatsu to look at him. when it doesn't work, he drops his head and his arm.
Karamatsu couldn't forgive Ichimatsu for what happened. why should he forgive Osomatsu, who'd done something much crueler?]
I really am... a shitty older brother... aren't I?
[if Karamatsu's not going to cry, then Osomatsu will do it for him. honestly, he's sort of been needing to cry. ever since he died, Osomatsu has been keeping his feelings bottled up inside. he's lost his family, lost his home. who knows if he'd get to see his mother and father again, or Totoko-chan? what about the brothers who didn't come to hell?
and when he thought Karamatsu was going to leave him... he couldn't take it. he'd been so upset that he went as far to push him away. why had he done something so stupid? what kind of brother was he? he was the absolute worst. it was no wonder Karamatsu killed himself.
and so, he cries. it's not his usual crocodile tears. those tears usually come with whining. but now, Osomatsu is not whining. he's crying silently, letting his tears fall from his eyes onto his pants]