Because.. I..—
_{[ A pause, as if he is really thinking about if he wants to actually get these words out. ]}

I... wanted you all to think I could be a strong, dependable brother you could rely on.
I wanted to be liked.. adored even. I wanted to change who I was.. so maybe I could be liked..
Liked by you, by everyone else.. and liked by myself.

I didn't want to show how weak I really am, but in the long run, I ended up raising the white flag. It was too exhausting.. I accepted my failure.