[ This was the exact response that he was expecting from Ichimatsu. A long, big monologue about self hatred— how he deserved it. He does deserve it. Ichimatsu does deserve it.. Karamatsu isn't the one to do it, though.. and that's because: ]
.. Because I'm spineless, worthless and a sack of selfish garbage that can't even live right. That's why I won't.
[ It clicks— how much they are alike— how afraid he is. Afraid of standing up for himself; afraid of what others might think. Karamatsu can't bring himself to look at Ichimatsu when he's his younger brother who is crying— but maybe that's because he's beginning to cry too.
So he simply turns, feeling defeated. Like always. ]
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Karamatsu isn't the one to do it, though.. and that's because: ]
.. Because I'm spineless, worthless and a sack of selfish garbage that can't even live right. That's why I won't.
[ It clicks— how much they are alike— how afraid he is. Afraid of standing up for himself; afraid of what others might think.
Karamatsu can't bring himself to look at Ichimatsu when he's his younger brother who is crying— but maybe that's because he's beginning to cry too.
So he simply turns, feeling defeated.
Like always. ]