There's an immeasurably huge difference between you being kidnapped by Chibita and you wanting to kill yourself, shithead.
[He huffs, hating that this conversation is happening at all, but hating more, he thinks, that he spent so much time being hateful. Hindsight is 20/20, don't they say? He rubs his thumbs in Karamatsu's palms idly, unable to be completely still. He's still not close to Karamatsu, and isn't sure he really wants to be-- he likes his space and his distance, and he's pretty sure Karamatsu would completely disregard that.]
...I was only ever kidding about wanting to die about half the time, you know. I know what that's like. I'm not saying I'm approachable or ever was, but.
[Grunt.]
I. Wish it had been different.
[Whether he means that he wishes he had been approachable, or that Karamatsu hadn't killed himself, or... any number of other things, is hard to say.]
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[He huffs, hating that this conversation is happening at all, but hating more, he thinks, that he spent so much time being hateful. Hindsight is 20/20, don't they say? He rubs his thumbs in Karamatsu's palms idly, unable to be completely still. He's still not close to Karamatsu, and isn't sure he really wants to be-- he likes his space and his distance, and he's pretty sure Karamatsu would completely disregard that.]
...I was only ever kidding about wanting to die about half the time, you know. I know what that's like. I'm not saying I'm approachable or ever was, but.
[Grunt.]
I. Wish it had been different.
[Whether he means that he wishes he had been approachable, or that Karamatsu hadn't killed himself, or... any number of other things, is hard to say.]