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[glitterpants]

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	» Age: 24 » Seeking: My adoring Karamatsu boys and girls ♡ » Preferences: I prefer to love slowly, enjoy the satisfying burn of melting desire!! » Interests: You, you, and of course.. you ;) » Bio: I am a man with my own mysterious soul, the windows of my heart guarded, yet yearning to find the person that Fate deems worthy of being my lover. Be the rose that I may pine after and adore, as I will hold onto you no matter how many times you prick me..
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[glitterpants]

Of course it is...! ah.. our brotherly bond is irreplaceable!
But Aoba.. i like you because of who you are and what kind of friend you are to me.. not *just* because we are soul mates!

[bottombitch]

[ O...oh. ]

What does that mean... the kind of friend I am to you?

[ He asks because Karamatsu always seems to have this funny way of describing something, he's learned to be at least cautious enough to ask. There can be so much room for misunderstanding. ]

[glitterpants]

The kind of friend you are to me...
You seem genuine.. you really want to be my friend! You talk to me and you laugh with me.. it's a lot of fun.
I worry sometimes that i will not be able to keep friends.. but you have shown me otherwise!

[bottombitch]

[ Ah.

AH!?

This kind of thing is really an unkind heart-shaped arrow that pierces straight through him, hitting him right where he's tender and vulnerable. Aoba tries to harden his heart by telling himself this is just how Karamatsu is - over the top as always - but it's the kind of thing that he wants to hear. So it makes his vision swim as his eyes fill with emotional tears and he takes a moment to type out his reply. ]

You dummy, of course I'm your friend. Friends forever, Kara-kun.

[glitterpants]

_{[ Nobody has ever made the 'friends forever' statement to him before. Karamatsu isn't exactly embarrassed like Aoba is, but he's certainly touched. Sincerely touched. He takes stuff like this to heart!
Somewhere, though, Karamatsu doesn't completely believe Aoba since he, in reality, lacks faith in his own self. He feels like maybe he will do something to make Aoba not like him anymore. ]}

Heh.. exactly.
You are my forever friend! My everlasting sunshine when i am surrounded by gloomy clouds.

[bottombitch]

[ Aoba doesn't realize it until this moment, nearly 6 months into quarantine, when he finally feels emotion swelling uncontrollably inside him. His eyes well up with tears, blurring his vision. Tears spill out while he hugs himself, not having Ren here to comfort him and he feels his voice hitch and sob in the quiet of his room. Never... Never has someone said he was his forever friend. Koujaku promised and went away, friends came and went.

But no one ever touched his heart where it was this vulnerable in a platonic sense. It takes Aoba a while to reply, after he's washed his face and gathered himself together. ]

Don't be so dramatic.

[ Said while wiping away tears. THANKS, ASSHOLE. ]

[glitterpants]

_{[ Meanwhile, Karamatsu has no idea that Aoba is crying and being dramatic on the other side. He feels a happiness in his heart but he's not nearly as emotionally compromised here since he says stuff like this on a regular basis. It means it, though. ]}

I cannot help it.. it's who i am, and it's who you are friends with. :)

[bottombitch]

[ 'Don't be so dramatic' Aoba said, being dramatic. That pretty much sums this up nicely. ]

Yeah, you're pretty impossible in that regard.

Sometimes it's cute.

[glitterpants]

<sub>[ Karamatsu rubs slightly at his eyes. Okay, well. Maybe there was a bit of an emotional stirring here.. enough to get him to wipe his eyes at least. Sometimes he misses home— he misses his parents and his other brothers. He misses teasing Choromatsu and criticizing him on his fashion tastes— he misses playing pachinko with Jyushimatsu, even if that meant he had to deal with Jyushimatsu's loudness for a whole evening. He misses going fishing with Todomatsu even if it meant that Todomatsu was embarrassed by him. He misses helping Matsuyo with cooking— he misses encouraging Matsuzo when he needed it and cracking open a beer with is father. He misses seeing Totoko-chan perform and giving her praise— he misses harassing Iyami just for kicks when they came across each other on the streets.

But this.. this kind of genuine friendship was hard for him to come by back home. It made the feeling of missing home distant. It kept his chin high because he actually felt like he had something here even if it wasn't home.

It's honestly because of the relationships he has built here he isn't an absolute mess being separated from his family. ]</sub>

Cute??
_{[ Nobody has ever called him cute before? ]}

[bottombitch]

[ They don't talk about it, but the feeling is mutual. Feeling displaced doesn't mean that they didn't miss what they used to have - friends, family, familiar places. Aoba misses the sounds of Granny in her kitchen and the scent of Koujaku's tobacco, and the rowdy kids from the store. He's lucky to have Noiz, or at least a version of him.

But having found a friend - even this embarrassing, over-the-top guy - makes quarantine feel a little more like home. But... speaking of embarrassing: ]

Sometimes! I only said sometimes!

[ oh god, what has he done ]

[glitterpants]

If that is the case...
You are cute sometimes too, Aoba-kun!
Only sometimes!

_{[ Two can play by the same rules here. ]}

[bottombitch]

[ WOW ]

Stuff like that always sounds like it has a different meaning coming from you.

[ Because he's always on some extreme end of whatever spectrum. ]

[glitterpants]

Ah.. what do you mean? Do you think i'm dishonest with a statement like that?
I will be glad to prove otherwise... i could write an essay about your cuteness!
_{[ oh my god Karamatsu PUT ON YOUR BRAKES. ]}

1.3

[bottombitch]

[ UGH THIS IS PAINFUL! Aoba literally throws up his hands and flops back on the couch. He's going to ignore his comm device. He's ignoring you, Karamatsu.

Starting now! ]

2.3

[bottombitch]

[ ...But he did tell him...

That he wanted him to feel comfortable being himself around him... this is the bed he made, isn't it? ]

3.3

[bottombitch]

[ Aoba sits up and starts typing again. FINE. ]

You don't have to write anything. I believe you, okay?

I'm going to bed now.

[glitterpants]

I'm so glad you believe me with your heart.
Would you like me to sing to you.. a lullaby to wish you a good night?
_{[ this is a weird advancement, but Karamatsu actually offers to do this to his brothers when they cannot sleep either. ]}

[bottombitch]

[ ...God, he knows he's just going to keep doing this until he agrees, isn't he? ]

Sure, call me.

[ But Aoba has an idea. ]

TEXT » AUDIO

[glitterpants]

_{[ Absolutely. He's a persistent little guy. He calls Aoba and doesn't start singing right away and greets him instead. ]}

Good evening, Aoba-kun. Are you ready for a lullaby to ease your soul?

[bottombitch]

Good evening, Kara-kun.

[ For a moment, Aoba rethinks his strategy. Ah, does he really want to use 'that'? Now that he hears his voice, he flops back and smiles at his device... his resolve faltering. He was thinking of using his voice to put him to sleep, but now...

Maybe he will. Just not immediately. ]

...Are you going to sing me a lullaby? Or is this going to keep me awake?

[glitterpants]

A lullaby! A-ah, for my soul mate, yes? The music of heavenly angels.. they are going to kiss the insides of your ears.. cradle your very spirit until you go to rest.
Are you ready for this, Aoba-kun?
_{[ come on, just get with it. ]}

[bottombitch]

[ Aoba doesn't know if he's ready. ]

Don't exaggerate... and that's a really embarrassing and confusing mental image...

Just play already!

[glitterpants]

<sub>[ Wow.. he really.. wants to hear him sing? Karamatsu wasn't expecting Aoba to actually allow him to get this far. It's different than karaoke where you have music and words to read. Something about this seems oddly intimate the more that Karamatsu thinks about it.

So, he just kind of stammers on the phone. Aoba really wanted to hear him sing?! ]</sub>

U.. uwa.. are you certain... certain that your heart is prepared!?

[bottombitch]

Haah? You're not ready?

[ Aoba's surprised himself, the fact he's hesitating for a change. He always seems so ready to sing, after all. Aoba flips around on his bed, pulling the pillow under his chest and propping himself up with it before staring into the screen again. ]

Is it you who wants a song instead, Karamatsu-kun?

Or do you just want to talk?

[glitterpants]

W-well, I do enjoy singing.. I do not think I have ever heard you sing before. I mean.. if you wanted to sing, I would not be opposed to listening to you!
_{[ Uh oh. DId he just make it even more intimate by asking Aoba to sing instead? ]}